Hey!!!! Big Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiii to all of you.........................

Such a long time nothing new in my world...same old office...same old problems....now i wont get worried at problems....i know they are always there for me....i wont get angry at my hubby if he comes late to pick me........i wont mind people not speaking to me....Is it a some kind of change in me or its saturation....

Saturation..hmmm..i remember this word with an example.... (which i studied)... if u have taken 500 ml of milk n start adding sugar in it....a time came wen it stop adding more sugar at that time either u have to heat the milk or add some more milk.....so its me a human being..is this happen to you also...a state of mind wen u stop reacting n responding.....tell me

One of my friend said....

" Life is a just a phase in energy transformation from one form to another, so death would be just another energy tranformation phase since energy can never be created nor destroyed, nobody dies and nobody lives they just change forms.As per our ancestors also they say every living being is made up off five thing since it is made up of five things in combination a life has formed which behaves in acertain manner, like any other chemical combination produces a product which behaves in a certain manner ,Emotions is also a sort of chemical reaction in the body, god is present because something must have created all this. talking about soul/spirit it could be just like a part of energy released trapped in the body. for eg if you heat a piece of iron and put in cold walter or oil it releases heat energy in form of vapors and the property of the metal changes. Same may be the case with our bodies the moment we die the part of the energy inside us gets released. just a thought!! "

This made me think on this topic very carefully....

So we all not humans..are energy..lol! (Sorry just kiddin dost)....May be we might be a form of energy which transform wen we die...but if we r energy..then why we become numb wen we upset we shud nt be right....we can compare our soul with a form of energy..but our emotions cannot be chemical reaction result.. if it is then everyone shud react same to one situation...all individual shud think same...As we all say God given everyone the similar mind ..its depends on a person how u use it....if our activities..our emotion result of chemical reaction then we shud react similarly...but this wont happen... if our emotions are just chemical reaction in our body then scientist shud b abl to develop emotions in robot also... One day i asked my father.."there was Lord Ram, Lord Shiv n other Gods who use to live on earth..then they died ..now r they present in sky ...sittin there n watching us...blessing us"...He smiled n said.."Beta..they all are born as Human beings..bt following correct path in life...n never did any wrong thing..always helped other people started praying them n become GOD... now they have gone..not alive...but there tejsay is there...in form of energy..they r nt sitting in sky n watching us..but there is one energy who rules whole world....."

I am agreed that our soul is form of energy ...part of that Vast energy which rule this world... we live n die..then rebirth again...our soul is same..but wen we r gona die...wen rebirth all is ruled by tht energy..GOD.. who is there n watchin, blessing us..bt our emotions are nt chemical reactions ...our body is made of five things...that is for our soul...body is just flesh...n bones..those five elements reflects in our behaviour..if we angry then fire element in role....if we r calm then water..the part of our behaviour which result from the way we think...is result of those five elements or we can say compared wid five elements.. which comprises this earth..Hope i tried my best to elaborate this topic..Your comment is invited

Everyday is not same...some days are hot...wheather is really hot nowadays...thank god rain is there...

God has solution of everything....if he creates a problem for you....he has solution also...believe it.. YEsterday i was goin home...i took a rikshaw...the driver was a child of 5 yrs...near abut 4 feet in height .. his clothes were dirty...............Wen he reached a playground...all the children started teasing him ... he just smiled...n his eyes filled with tears...i saw those tears......

That was not just a child...he was future of our India...n this is the future we are giving to the country which is our own.........It was his age to play...study...to smile...n he has tears in his eyes....

Hey we all are Great!!! .....we r so busy to earn lots of money n save it from TAX...did we ever bother abut this..sorry no time..we have time for stupid relations which hurts us..bt not for this..Guys wake up...Only we can do smthing for these childrens..Hey its our country future..please stop it from being spoiled.. We together can do smthing...We never bother abut anything..we say Oh Politics..Its corrupted...did we ever voted..? On the day of Voting we would be handling our US or UK clients...This is are Country so please wake up n do something..Its time to wake up..n Give smile to those who cried out their heart...We can help..n we shud

PS : For you Gagan...

I agreed that all great peoples are suceeded just cuz of their hard work..but did u know today parents teach there children how to beg so tht they can have enough money for their drink....they sell their daughter in market just for 10,000 rupees...look like u never see news...never heard such kind of things....you would be sad to know that world had change dear....n u shud be grateful to GOD tht u r in gud society where just wid hard work u reached ur destination...till today they sell girls in market at age of 10 yrs....till now they kill a new born baby if its girl ...look like u living in some different world..wake up n see reality is far different from this dream.. N u know the all charity firm for childrens...they deposit money in their bank... behave so badly wid children .. all waste ..samjhe..so our social structure is not sustainable to handle this on other hand is waste n useless....

One day, a man came home and was greeted by his wife dressed in very sexy

nightie. "Tie me up," she purred, "and you can do anything you want." So he

tied her up and went golfing.

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A woman came home, screeching her car into the driveway, and ran into the

house. She slammed the door and shouted at the top of her lungs, "Honey,

pack your bags. I won the lottery!" The husband said, "Oh my God! What

should I pack, beach stuff or mountain stuff?" "Doesn't matter," she said.

Just get out."

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Marriage is a relationship in which one person is always right, and the

other is a husband.

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A Polish immigrant went to the DMV to apply for a driver's license. First,

of course, he had to take an eye sight test. The optician showed him a card

with the letters: 'C Z W I X N O S T A C Z.'

"Can you read this?" the optician asked. "Read it?" the Polish guy replied,

"I know the guy."

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A wife was making a breakfast of fried eggs for her husband. Suddenly, her

husb and burst into the kitchen. "Careful," he said, "CAREFUL! Put in some

more butter! Oh my GOD! You're cooking too many at once. TOO MANY! Turn

them! TURN THEM NOW! We need more butter. Oh my GOD! WHERE are we going to get MORE BUTTER? They're going to! STICK! Careful . CAREFUL! I said be

CAREFUL! You NEVER listen to me when you're cooking! Never! Turn them!

Hurry up! Are you CRAZY? Have you LOST your mind? Don't forget to salt them.

You know you always forget to salt them. Use the salt. USE THE SALT! THE SALT!"

The wife stared at him. "What in the world is wrong with you? You think I

don't know how to fry a couple of eggs?"

The husband calmly replied, "I just wanted to show you what it feels like

when I'm driving."

Keep Smiling

One of friend read my blog and said.....

"i feel everybody has good life. Look carefully happiness is standing next to you. just take a look and you will find it. "

so we analyse this....Everyone has good life..agreed...then why mishappening happened to me ...i also have friends who have a simple n calm life..why there r problems wid me only?....so do u think i m person who dont think positive..? who dont want to look for happiness...? Inspite of all problems n issues i always hoped ...everything happen for a good reason....bt why nothing good happen wid me....

I married the person i love still i m nt happy...wats the reason...

I know expectation...why we all stupid people on earth set expectations....?

I expect a person who understands me....a family who supports me...friends who care for me...Am i expecting smthing which cannot be given..it can be....then why i m nt happy....

Yes they all loves me...supports me....care for me...bt nt upto my expectation..they do it according to themselves..i smile everyday in morning..but deep inside i dont feel like it..i want to cry..bt i cant..cuz the person whom i married cant see me crying....the tears r dried now...sometime i dont feel like smiling but i have to..n i hate this...

We always say hope for best....wat if ur hope dies......

If u ask a person abut there memorable day....he/she may say "hey its my childhood"....for me..i never lived those days...to which i ever want to go back.....I am nt a normal person...whether its my luck or destiny...obstacles are always there... even if the road is clean....still i fell down....God knows why he do this with me..... ................ In my memories there is no day of my childhood which i want to live again.....one thing which i remember is pain..tears....

I use to broke everything into many pieces....glasses....plates...showpieces...pots...accidently....dont know how..? now people break me into pieces...dnt know why...? Nobody can tolerate this so as my mother..she use to shout at me...beat me...n i used to cry.....U know what..God had always been unfair to me bt still i trust him...why..?...i Cry n remember god......then one day...i heard a story of Cinderalla....a small girl who is in pain..n god sended her prince to rescue her.....since that day i started hopin for rescue...wenever smthin bad happen to me...i cried my heart out n tell myself...tht one day..my prince will come...n rescue me....

Hope...a feeling which tell you to live....which make u understand ki sab thik ho jayega....evrythin happen for a gud reason...bt a person is nt happy...then how tht thing can b gud....anyways...so i was hopin for my prince...... to come .. to hold my hand....to change my world....everythin around me....n one day he came...tall ..with small eyes...dark...handsome....i can see his soul wen i see into his eyes...he came....to rescue me...to give me all happiness .. to make me smile...to share my pain....i want to smile as i never smiled before....i want to live as i never lived before... i want to fly.....But i forgot one thing that Cinderalla was a story...n I am nt a character of story...i m a living person.. there is no prince who can change ur life...u born...n now u have to live this life...there is no hope to rescue......he didnt came to rescue me....he came cuz....he want to teach me...tht stop living in dreams...face reality.......

So u never b abl to rescue from ur worries...tensions...pain...n my best friend tears...they alwayz b wid u...n u hv to live .. nobody will rescue u.....nobody will come...now u r trapped in this life..only one thing can rescue u frm this miserabl life n tht is Death...why people fear death if they have no hope for rescue...Trust me u can read other blogs also noone is happy in this world...so why fear death...it wud give peace...there wud be no pain....no worries...no hope....so atleast this time god will rescue me from this life.....

I was watchin a Lughter programme on TV yesterday...thank god now u can watch more of them...we got rid from saas-bahu serials finally....it made me laugh...n yes i can laugh loud than my hubby....but a thought came into my mind....Does this Laughter programmes can really make us laugh real?...so here is the Analysis.....

These programmes consist of stupid jokes..which have no sense n we laugh cuz we got some sense...funny...but that laugh is not real....

A real laugh is somthin which comes from within...a laugh wen ur eyes filled with emotion..love..pain..grief bt on this jokes wen I am laughin...my eyes were blank no emotions...means my mind is nt working at that time...... this means these programmes can not make us real laugh...they can just steal our thoughts... our mind stops..nt thinkin abut all tensions...n problems which we have it just refresh us.....we can think only those jokes n laugh on that....

When I m with my loved one...wen i saw my parents...a very old lost friend....n my hubby..the emotions are there in my eyes...at that time if i laugh thats real....

Do u also think the same...so try to meet ur loved one n get ur real laugh again...else may be u lost ur laugh somewhere as this world is really cruel....so make sure u have real laugh once a week so that u remain alive...u wont become numb...a person who lives without emotions....

The rules for being human You will receive a body – You may like it or hate it, but it will be your for the entire period of this time around.

You will learn lessons – You are enrolled in a full time information school called life. Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or think them irrelevant and stupid.

There are no mistakes, only lessons – Growth is the process of trial and error: Experimentation. The failed experiments are as much the part of the process as the experiment that ultimately works.

A lesson is repeated until learned – A lesson will be presented to you in many forms until you have leaned it. When you have leaned it, you can then go on to next lesson.

Learning lessons does not end – There is no part of life that does not contain it’s lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.

“There” is no better than “here” – When your there has become here, you will simply obtain another “there”, that will again look better then “here”.

Others are merely mirrors of you. – You cannon love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself.

What you make of your life is up to you. – You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.

Your answers lie inside you. – The answers to life’s questions lie inside you. All you need is to do look, listen and trust.

You will forget all this.

Wen I born....i didnt remember anything but yes i m sure that was the best part of my life...everyone loves me... care for me..... n talk to me a lot. (wen i grown up those relatives n family member hardly get enough time to talk to me thats why i have friends)..........

Situation is same... I reborn again....dont jump to any conclusion... I Got Married...

I was wearing a pink color Lehnga....with lots of heavy jewellery ..n i was lookin beautiful... really...n he is lookin Dashin.. 6 feet.. Tall.. Dark.. Handsome...with little sweet shining eyes......massa on left cheek.......n yes kharus wali smile.......on 28 April 2007

Finally the BIG day arrived....for which we fought for last 3 years.....arguements..tears....pain....then atlast smile...as per saying.."ant bhala to sab bhala".......

Its a new birth for me.....i m scared....really dont know how everyone behaVES with me in new home...just like a new born baby..everyone shows love for me....care for me...n talkin....n of course how can i 4get Muhdekhaieee..... Huh.. its like i am new showpiece everyone come to see n then left comments..some good...funny....aache wale.........

I m feeling complete after this birth...happy from inside....my soul is happy.....

About my new family...

Husband... Kharus
Mother in Law --- Just like my MOM
Father In Law --- Maharaja Akbar of Mugle-e-Azaam
Sister In Law --- Anil Kapoor's SIS of Tezaab
Brother in Law -- My little Baby... sweet... innocent....caring...n bahut jayada aacha....thank god i find one person in that house more than my expectation...God Bless Him alwayz...Just want to see him smile n happy always.............

Today is my last day at Sapient.......i remember my last day at Samsung..last year...still i am living in that moment.....everybody is crying..huging...till today i can feel that in me...Here in Sapient peoples are more professional...this is wat i learned from Sapient..be professional at work...so that u wont create a scene on ur last day...which is created at Samsung time..everybody is cryin...oh god..why i get attached to people easily..i hate to get departed from them............i hate pain..tears..agony..inside me..i hate it..i hate hate also......

What we left behind is important...love..hate..pain..tears..or a cute smile...

What i left behind i dont know...but i always tried to left smile on everybody face..i know its really hard to smile..wen ur brain n heart is goin in different directions...wen ur heart is not able to answer all questions asked by ur mind....wen u have no defence points to give to ur brain for ur own decisions...its hard to survive..but see we r surviving..so its not hard to smile...a smile on ur face..itseld reduces ur worries...ur problems to half...so keep smilin..u never know which moment is goin to be the last one..the best is u keep smilin..give ur all..given ur fullest...n live rest to god..he has always something good planned for us...

It really makes me feel good wen people miss me..coz i miss some badly..i need some always around me..i never express things inside me..wiase to I am a extrovert person..but wen it come to express myself..i am worse in this..i never express my love...grattitude..my affection..to anybody...i am quiet..i expect people to express themselves in front of me..n then simply i can say..me too..how stupid of me...its not my ego which wont make me express myself..its my past..my childhood...